Saturday, December 31, 2005

I'm not sure if I'll keep up with the online food diary, but for a few days I figured it's be worth a try...

And yeah, pancakes was not the best thing I could have had for dinner, but it was better than the pizza I wanted to order. I think.

Breakfast: 1 banana | 90 cal
Fat free yogurt | 100 cal
Lunch: 1 roast beef sandwich | 340 cal
1 bag baked Lays Chips | 140 cal
Dinner: Pancakes | 600 cal
Snack: Apple | 60 cal

Friday, December 30, 2005

Breakfast: None
Vending Machine Cave-In: Snickers Bar | 220 cal
Lunch: 1/2 roast beef sandwich | 180 cal
1 bag baked Lays Chips | 140 cal
Dinner: Vegetable Soup | 300 cal
Snack: Apple | 60 cal
Fat free yogurt | 100 cal

Another even week--no loss, no gain. Considering how crappy I ate all week, that's a major victory. There have been cookies (oooh, my mother in law makes these awesome oatmeal crispies that I am powerless against) and pumpkin pie on Christmas, and yesterday's Arby's regular, followed by a piece of chocolate cake, and then a late dinner at Denny's were probably not the best choices I could have made (but they were goooood...)

We're grocery shopping today, I need to get some reasonable foods in this house to keep me from reaching for the junk (and to keep me from eating out) and to get me back on track.

Bench PressWe're also checking out the base gym today. It occured to us that we can likely use it for pool, which I need, but for now free beats $100 month for a membership where I have to fight for a lane in the pool (though later, probably after we know how much we'll get socked for in taxes this year, we'll join Gold's Gym....pool plus tons of classes there, especially karate, which I want to try again even if it hurt, and damn, can I create a longer run on sentence???)

Friday, December 23, 2005

Ooops, yes, it's Friday. Bad news is I didn't lose anything. Good news is I didn't gain anything. And considering this has been the week frm hell, that's decent enough!

Saturday, December 17, 2005

New goal this month:


Friday, December 16, 2005

Half a pound lost again.
Better than half a pound gained.
Or worse.
We won't discuss the fries or the chocolate truffles...

Monday, December 12, 2005

I stopped eating the Nurtisystem food because it was tearing me up. The problem is I didn't know ingredient was doing it.

Tonight I tried a couple small pieces of a sugar free candy...loaded with malitol.

Malitol is not my friend.

I still don't know if soy is a problem, but I can be sure that mailtol is, and NS foods tend to be loaded with it.

My poor tummy...

Friday, December 09, 2005

Half a pound.

I suppose that's something...I fought that damned half pound all week. Up and down, up and down...but at least on the scale this morning it was gone. It might be back next week, but for today, it's gone.

Could be worse. We found this nice store yesterday with awesome dark chocolate truffles, and dammit, I had a few. I could be UP a pound instead!

Friday, December 02, 2005

All my jiggly stuff held steady this week; no loss but on the bright side, no gain, either. I'm coming to terms with the idea that I'm probably not going to make my -30 goal for Christmas, but that's okay. If you'd asked me when I started all this if I'd be down 20 by now I'd have laughed at you.
Sales Rack
We're going to start Christmas shopping this week.
Does that count for exercise?
That should count...
All those people, all the pushing and shoving...yeah, that should count.

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

Weight is holding steady... the doc increased my synthroid today, so I have marginal hopes that might help up my metabolism a tad. It's not a huge increase and I *know* it's not a weight loss drug, but I can have my little hopes ;) At least maybe I won't feel so freaking cold!

Friday, November 25, 2005

Nap TurkeyOn a whim last night--after eating turkey and stuffing and mashed potatoes and PIE--I decided to try on some next-size-down-jeans that have been in my closet (in one state or another) for the last few years.

They fit.

So my next goal is to not only get as close to -30 as I can by Christmas, but to make those jeans as loose as the ones I'm wearing right now.

Standing up and having your pants fall down...who'da thunk that would be good for the ego...?

Thursday, November 24, 2005

Ok, so I took the official weight a day early, mostly because--even though I'm not cooking this huge Thanksgiving dinner--I plan on eating a little more than usual today. I'm having PIE, dammit!

I got on the scale this morning and was way surprised. Total loss to date: 21.5 pounds. I lost last weeks gain of 2.5 pounds plus 2.5 more. I know some of that was water, and I'm not sure how the rest came off, but I'm not questioning it.

But... yay!


Tuesday, November 22, 2005

The other night, when I had 400 some odd calories left to play with and was really hungry?

Well, I caved. I did not eat Good Stuff. My son came home at 10 P.m. and was hungry, too, and pancakes sounded really good to both of us. Great big fluffy pancakes, dripping with butter and syrup. It was a Mrs. Buttersworth calorie fest.

And last night? Well, let's just say I ate out and didn't make the effort to pick reasonable things from the menu.

So after 2 days of not making the wisest choices, I dreaded getting on the scale.

And what do you know... The 2.5 pounds gained from last week were gone, along with 1.5 of their little fatty friends. It's not the Official Weekly Weigh In, of course, but it sure as hell made me feel better.

There won't be a Thanksgiving Blowout dinner, and no leftovers to contend with (we're eating out...All Hail Denny's) so I have high hopes of not gaining anything else this week, except maybe a pound or two of water if my DDAVP doesn't wear off.

And today's weighing makes me unofficially at more than 20 pounds lost overall.


Sunday, November 20, 2005

I hate nights like tonight. they dont happen often, but when they do...

I'm hungry. Not just a little munchy hungry, where a banana or a yogurt would fix it; I want food and lots of it. I had dinner just two and a half hours ago, and if I dared, I could eat a whole other meal.

Hot ChocolateAnd if it wasn't for the calorie count, I'd be downstairs, making hot chocolate and toast. Well, if I had the stuff to make hot chocolate with. I'd make it and 3 or 4 slices of toast slathered in butter. So I suppose it's a good thing that I don't have the makings for it, and that I'm night blind and can't take myself to the store for a container or Nestle's Quik.

I still have 420 caories to play with today, maybe a little more if I decide to go over 1200, so I can still eat something. I just know me. If I eat something now, come 10 p.m., when I usually have a snack, I'll still want one. If I rationalize that I can have some raw veggies, come 10 p.m. I'll rationalize myself into a major detary blowout.

So it's damned lucky I can't drive at night, because a 600-700 calorie hot chocolate blowout would sooooooo be happening...

Friday, November 18, 2005

GrrrUp 2.5 pounds.
I'm pissed.
Not at myself, just pissed in general.

No, I'm not giving up, and I knew a week like this was headed my way, but it still ticks me off. It's not even disappointment: I got on that scale this morning and was downright angry.

You'd think that at 1200 calories a day, at my current size1, weight would drip off, not sneak back on.


I need to be more diligent about keeping a food diary. I keep track of calories ingested, but I need to take a closer look at what those calories are, I think. I started this knowing I needed to be on a low glycemic diet, and I suspect a pound of that gain is because I took in too many higher glycemic foods. And some is water; the last 2 nights my DDAVP hasn't worn off, and today I feel it in my forearms. That's not something I can control.

Good thing though...I don't have that urge to go eat something totally not good for me. All I want right now is a banana. :::checks clock::: Too close to lunch, though. I can have it as my fruit with lunch instead.

Yep, I'm that anal right now. I could have it now and skip the fruit with lunch, but I know me. I'm going to want it with lunch, too.

1Nope, I'm still not comfortable with admitting just what that size is...

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

PoutyOk. realistically I know I'm going to have plateaus.
I can deal with those, even if I do whine about them.

But sheesh...I ate like crap week before last and lost weight. I'm back on track and so far I've gained weight this week.

I'd chalk it up to water weight, but my DDAVP has worn off early three nights running and I've shed any possible ecess water.

I know, I two days I could get on the scale and it'll be gone again. But dangit, I'm so close to having lost 20 that I'm not exactly patient about it.

Not. At. All.

Friday, November 11, 2005

I Love CandyI think the crappy diet over the last couple of weeks caught up with me. I ate better this week than last, but I was less active and lost absolutely nothing.

It's a little more difficult without actually using the NS foods; I mean, I have to think about what I'm eating. I was hoping to do all this without having to engage the brain all that much...

So, back on the calorie counting bandwagon. At this rate I'm not going to hit my target of 30 pounds gone by Christmas...

Friday, November 04, 2005

Minus 5 for the week.

I have a totally new diet plan: eat fast food until you hate it, but haul boxes up and down stairs every day. You wont like it, but you'll lose weight.

One more pound to minus twenty!

Thursday, November 03, 2005

MoversI had low expectations for this week; we're in the middle of moving and the dietary front has been looking pretty awful, but in spite of the steady stream of fast food and Denny's, I've dropped a couple of pounds. "Official" weigh in is tomorrow, so we'll see. I'll be happy with 2 pounds!

And dangit, I am too old to be hauling chit up a flight of stairs...

Friday, October 28, 2005

One more pound gone...but it seems a little disappointing. I've kept it right at 1200 calories a day, the highest I've gone is 1300 one day, and still only one pound. At my weight, more than just a single pound shoulda come off...


Monday, October 24, 2005

BroccoliSo far I'm doing ok eating low glycemic without the NS foods...looking back over my food diary for the last few days I'm dropping the ball on getting enough vegetables in. It's easy with NS; you have the entree, and fix a couple of veggies to eat with it. It should be that easy without the NS foods, but I seem to be skipping the veggies, thinking "I'll eat that later..."

For some reason, broccoli doesn't sound as appetizing at 10 p.m.

Friday, October 21, 2005


Weighing is a habit; I stripped and got on the scale this morning without even thinking about it--another pound down.

I'll take it.

Thursday, October 20, 2005

No weight loss this week. I'm not thrilled but it's ok...I weighed this morning, and won't tomorrow even though I usually weigh in on Fridays. I somehow doubt I'll lose 10 pounds overnight, unless my DDAVP wears off ealry and I pee it off (which can happen!)

That just means next week will be a 3 pound week, right? Right!

Considering I've been off the NS food this week, I'm really not too disapointed. It make take me a bit to get in the swing of preparing my own low glycemic and lower calorie foods.

A Big Mac is low GI, right?

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

Well, I think I have my answer. Two days off NS to calm my tummy, went back on it today...and instant yuckiness.

Damn, this means I have to actually cook..

Monday, October 17, 2005

You can file this under TMI...

I've mentioned before the, um, social unacceptablity of being on NutriSystem: people on the NS support boards refer to this common problem as "NutriToots." Kind of funny, especially when you're offending everyone around you. And if you have the sense of humor of a 6 year old (which I obviously do.)

Dramatic DeathIt's not so funny when the problem escalates with the longer you're on the plan. I did think it was funny at first and took some comfort in reading others' comments that after a while, it eased up and eventually went away. I got some quality alone time--I didn't mind making the cats' eyes water or sending other people running from the room.

Until Saturday night.

Without getting too graphic, let's just say that this side effect grew to epic proportions, which increased to other bodily eruptions that had the cat looking at me like "What the hell did you just do? If I did that you'd be rushing me to the vet!" and had me =this= close to calling the Boy at whatever party he was at and asking him to come home so he could take me to the ER.

I was in a serious amount of pain; hell, having the brain tumor removed hurt less. At the worst point, not only was there pain and eruptions of the explosive kind, but I broke out into a cold sweat, I got that funky tunnel vision that preceeds passing out, and then felt as if I was on fire.

I literally crawled back to bed... I didn't eat any of the NS foods yesterday or today, and aside from being totally wiped out from Saturday night's torture, I feel fine.

Tomorrow I'll eat a few NS things and see what happens...but if what happens is even remotely close to Saturday night, I'm tossing in the towel. I know how to do a low glycemic diet on my own, I was just happy to not have to make the effort to cook and clean up.

The Spouse Thingy is staying on it; he doesn't have the same problem and he can eat whatever food I have left if I wind up having to stop.

Saturday, October 15, 2005

Ok, we'll toss yesterday up to a free day. I started the day with good intentions, but left the house unprepared for lunch time hunger pains--and they hit hard. Yep, we could have stopped somewhere for something healthy, but a burger sounded really good. So we stopped at Wendy's, and I ate 75% of a single (no cheese) and half an order of fries.

Pizza PieBut later we decided it was truly going to be a free day and went out for pizza. And holy crap, when did a large become the size of a smallish medium??? It figures, we decided we're going to just ENJOY, and there was not a whole lot of pizza there...

Do I feel guilty?

Hell, no.

One of the things I don't understand, surfing around support boards, is when people get honestly upset because they popped 3 french fries into their mouth, or they were stuck somewhere and had to eat what was available, and they go over daily calories by 40-50.

We all have to learn to eat in Real Life, not just with specially prepared foods in front of us. Once in a while you're going to consume some not-so-wonderful-for-you things, and it's ok. As long as you know you can limit it to one day every once in a while, it's a good thing.

And I do understand some people are in a place emotionally where they just can't allow themselves a "slip" because it will cause an avalanche of poor food choices, but for the most part--enjoy once in a while.

Your sanity will thank you.

Friday, October 14, 2005

Scale 1.5 more pounds gone.
Hopefully forever.
Yay me!

Wednesday, October 12, 2005


If I don't lose weight this week, it's not my fault.

That smoothie just jumped into my hand, and I was forced to drink it.

Yep. Forced.

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

KarateI used to train in a martial art.

never had to break boards, but I'm pretty sure I'd have all the luck that this little smiley guy is having...

I'd love to get back to it; my weight is not what's kept me from it, my back and hips certainly have. And while the arthritis probably isn't going to just vanish and the narrowing of my lower spine won't just reverse itself, I still harbor this little fantasy that getting the weight off might make it possible.

I was never that good at sparring, but dang, I loved forms (kata, hyung, poomse...a rose by any other name kind of thing.) If I'm not taking blows, maybe...

One can hope.

Friday, October 07, 2005


Two days ago we were very, very bad... We stopped at Denny's for lunch (grilled tilapia, which is a reasonable choice, but then there was garlic bread, and I said "screw it" and ate it, and was very happy about that.)

Later we went for a nice long walk...and I got three quarters of the way and then had to stop. I couldn't walk any further, not because of a lack of endurance, but because my back and hips suddenly decided to mutiny. So he went home and got the car, and by that point I was so hungry I was going to eat the foam insulation in the passenger we went for fajitas.

And trust me, it was gooooood.

Got on the scale this spite of the fajitas (and chip & salsa, the torilla, and the little corn tomalito that no sane person can resist) I was down 3 pounds for the week.

I am a firm believer in one good "cheat" meal a week, but having eaten out twice in one day just felt, well kinda naughty. :)

If you're interested in a low glycemic diet, but don't want to bother with something like NS, check this book out. I read it a couple of years ago; it explains the whole low GI diet quite clearly and for those who aren't as lazy as I am, it's easy to do.

Face it, I buy NS foods for convenience...

Monday, October 03, 2005

A victory of sorts...?

I needed a new pair of shoes, so off we went to buy me a new pair of shoes. As I reached down to tie one of them, one of my rings just slid off my finger. The other 2 that I wear are also loose. The down side: the ring I wear on my middle finger is kind of ornate, and if I have to get it resized, it'll mess up the design.

Today's weighing has me down a total of 11 pounds, but knowing how things went last week, I'm not holding my breath. I'll be happy if it sticks, but not surprised if I get on the scale tomorrow and am up a pound.

And it looks like I'll get my next food shipment tomorrow. Yay.

Sunday, October 02, 2005

Tsk. It's totally not fair that men can lose body fat faster than women. He's down 11 pounds and I'm still stuck at 8.5... Yes, I'm whining!

Thursday, September 29, 2005

There is a downside to the whole NurtriSystem plan. The food is good, its filling, it works, but... When you buy your food, you get 28 days' worth. If you choose autoshipping, they'll send you the same thing everytime unless you tell them to change things. All god.

But you buy 28 days' worth, and they autoship every 30-31 days. So at the end of Day 28, if you've stuck to it and not eaten other foods as your main entrees, you're out of food.

It does not add up. Nope.

So...I'm at the end of Day 28. I do have some food left over because there were a couple meals when I ate out (made good choices, I think) and there are a couple of things I won't touch because they're (to me) nasty. I'm left to wait until my next shipment gets here (supposedly it goes out tomorrow, I'll believe that when I see it) and to contemplate whether or not I should have saved all the boxes the food came in.

'Cause if nothing else, I coulda blended the boxes together for a nice high-fiber carboard shake...


Wednesday, September 28, 2005

OK, if it's not water weight, I'm going to shoot myself. Over the last couple days my weight has inched back up the 3.5 pounds that I lost last week, in spite of sticking to the diet like Superglue... I've struggled to take in 1200 calories a day--the last couple days I've been under 900. Not good, I know, but I doubt just a couple days is enough for a body to suddenly scream Oh No we have to hold onto everything!

Intellectually I know it's water for the sole reason that my DI medication hasn't worn off for the last 4 nights, and when it doesn't, I don't pee off everything I've had to drink. But knowing that doesn't make me feel any better.

If I do get a couple nights of breakthrough on the meds, I think I'll be even for the week. No loss. Dammit.

Annoyed And Disappointed

Friday, September 23, 2005

:::jumps up & down:::

Down 3.5 pounds for the week!
Wakka Wakka

A small personal victory for myself yesterday: I was out running errands and managed to get stuck behind an I turn around and decided to cut through the air force base to take the back roads home (it took 30 minutes to mve 4 car lengths...I figured the long way home was faster...) By then it was almost 4 p.m. and I still hadn't had lunch and was very hungry and thristy.

The base has a conveniently located Burger King. I decided to go through the drive through and get a Diet Coke...and I resisted the call of the Whopper Jr. Granted, I should have stopped and eaten something because I was right at the edge of eat-or-get-sick, but I waited.

And yes, I'm proud of me. In the past I would have used low blood sugar as a reason to stop and eat a burger.

Now, if it had been Wendy's...oh yeah, I would have stopped and gotten a small chili and a side salad...

Thursday, September 22, 2005

Small victories...I have this pair of jeans--my favorite pair--that have been just a wee bit too snug in the waist to be terribly comfortable, so I haven't worn them in about a year (hell, they were tight in the waist then, too...)

On a lark today I decided to try them on--they fit. I can sit and not feel like I'm being cut in half. Now, they're not hanging off me, but they're comfortable.

I need to wear the crap out of these, just in case they don't fit again in a few weeks...

In other news...last night we decided we'd been doing well enough that we could eat out. We chose Red Lobster and each got the Tilapia with broccoli on the side, and limited ourselves to just one of the cheesy bisquits. Less than 500 calories for the whole meal. Even with that, at the end of the day I just barely hit 1200 calories. Oddly enough, oveeating hasn't been an issue with this--undereating has. I usually end the day at 1000 calories, 200 short.

And no, I'm not happy about that. I *know* I need those other 200 calories...who'da thunk it'd be hard to get them in...?

Saturday, September 17, 2005

The immature part of me thinks this is funny...someone on the NS support boards has a name for that which makes us socially unaceptable.



Yes, part of me is 5 years old.

Friday, September 16, 2005

Raise The Roof 2

Two weeks down, and 5 pounds gone. Yay.

The downside: consuming so much in the way of vegetables, salads, and all the soy that's in NS food, I am a unacceptable. I keep hoping that will ease up bit so far I am not someone you want to be trapped in an elevator with.

And I was thinking about my weight goals earlier: while overall I want to drop 70 pounds, I'm hoping I can shed 30 of it by Christmas.

Doable, right...? At the very least I'd like to be down a couple sizes, necessitating the purchase of new clothing.

Yep, there's a method to my madness.

New stuff.

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

We were out most of the afternoon, so we wound up stopping at Denny's for an early dinner. I went in thinking What the hell, one meal won't throw everything out of kilter, but I wound up ordering something actually healthy. Grilled Tilapia with some green beans and just a little bit of rice. Not too shabby, and it still fit in as a low glycemic meal.

The Other Half's food is scheduled to be delivered tomorrow, so he's having one last evening of decadence with peach cobbler. I think his big worry is that the portions will kill him and he'll starve for the first 2 weeks as he adjusts to it. I adjusted pretty quick; a small piece of fish and some green beans stuffed me tonight. It doesn't take much now, and I hate feeling overly full, so for me it's all good. He'll get used to it, or learn to love lots of veggies...

I think I weighed last Thursday morning, but this week I'm pushing it back to Friday (the official weight date, that is; I still weight just about every morning.) Looking back, I started on a Friday so I weighed in a day early last week.

This would all be so much easier if there were just a pill to take. Melt the fat away and look 10 years younger. Yeah, I'd buy that!


Sunday, September 11, 2005

I finally found a NS meal that I cannot stand. BBQ beef over rice. It was so bad I wound up tossing it out. I think the horridness came from the BBQ sauce--it tasted like going to the dentist. I don't know any other way to describe it. Just...nasty.

I got on the scale this morning and was down another 2 pounds, but I know better than to count on that for the week.

While I am going to get tired of salads (I can replace that with salad veggies, and I foresee a trip to the grocery store today to get some cucumbers) I'm not getting hungry very often. Pretty much only before it's time to eat again.

The Other Half's food hasn't even shipped yet, so there's no telling when he'll be able to start. I've read lots of people commenting on a sudden slowdown in food shipments...could be related to the fact that NS is diverting a lot of their stock south as donations to feed displaced hurricane victims. So he can wait a few days...I offered to let him start with part of my food, but he's afraid I'll get caught with no food if his doesn't ship soon enough.

I doubt I would starve or begin a feeding frenzy; I do know how to eat low glycemic on my own, but he's not willing to let me lose my momentum, so I appreciate that.

Now, I just wish my digestive system would get used to the increase in bulk...I am socially unacceptable, and sometimes afraid to sneeze...

Peace Sign

Thursday, September 08, 2005

Wakka Wakka

My other half (hey, I am not saying "better!"> has decided to join me on the Nutrisystem food plan. This should make things esier. Well, for us. Maybe not so much for our son. :)

And I did my "official" one week weigh in, and I did lose weight for the week: 2 pounds. Not the nice 3.5 I was hoping to hold onto, but I'll take it. I suppose it's too much to hope for to have 2 pounds gone every single week...or maybe not.

Gee...I might have to start =gasp= exercising...

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

Total frustration: losing a few pounds early on, and having them all back just a couple of days later.

How in the hell...?

Monday, September 05, 2005

Just a few days in and I'm down 3.5 pounds. WooHoo! I won't jump off a cliff if I'm up a pound tomorrow (because of medical stuff, I'm supposed to weigh every day...) but 'll take every victory I can get.

One of the things I was worried about was that I'd be hungry all the time...luckily I'm not. The portions are satisfying, and by eating 5 times a day, by the time I do get hungry, it's time to eat again.

I'm waiting for that first really gross thing that I can't gag down...Surely somewhere in te food I ordered is the one thing that will make me want to hurl.

Friday, September 02, 2005

OK, the food boxes are small, but... holy canole, I just had dinner and I am stuffed. They do want you to supplement with fruits and veggies and dairy.

Breakfast is one of their entrees, a dairy or protein, and a fruit. I could not manage the fruit this morning; I'm not a morning eater and I'm gonna have to work up to that. The shredded wheat cereal was very good, and I had a lite yogurt with it. Oh, and you're supposed to put 4 ounces of skim milk on the cereal, but being lactose intolerant, I didn't...

Lunch is an entree with a dairy or protein,and a salad. Um, we were out and I did not think to bring food with me, so I had a small McD's burger, and 5 french fries. Bad on me for day one, eh?

Snack is a dairy or protein, and a fruit. I did not have snack this afternoon... never thought about it.

Dinner is an entree, salad or fruit, 2 vegetables, and a fat. I had the pot roast entree, and it had more meat than I normally would eat, with a few odd carrots and potatoes in gravy. And it was damned tasty. I made a salad and some green beans, thinking I had enough green beans to count as 2 veggies, but I just looked, and I did not. I had no clue what to have as a fat. Lick the margrine 2 or 3 times? I know I need fat, if I can't find other ways I may have to get some flaxseed oil.

So...I am behind on food. I missed a fruit this morning, one at snack, and a dairy or protein at snack. I shorted myself a veggie at dinner. I still have "dessert" to look forward to later, one of their little pre-packaged snack thingies.

Now I'm not sure if I sure try to have a fruit with it to make up for not having that earlier, or skip it today.

I'm not sure what the total calories are in the womens' program... the entrees seem to be about 220-250 calories each. I'm guessing it's about 1200-1400 depending on the chosen dairy/protein/salad stuff. And somewhere on the website I read that there are a bunch of "free" veggies, stuff you can pretty much eat as much of as you like.


Yep, pretty much unlimited salad-type veggies, and lots of them are my favorites (like cucumber, celery, spinach, alphalpha sprouts...)

Hopefully the rest of the food will be as tasty. If it is, I'm gonna be in fat kat heaven.

Thursday, September 01, 2005

Well now...that was fast. My food order shipped yesterday and it arrived today. So I start tomorrow. I'll weigh in first thing in the morning (well, after I pee...every ounce out helps) and take measurements (no, I'm not sharing!) and the Change Of Eating Style will begin.

There will even be some Before pictures, and if I drop the 70 or so pounds I'm hoping to, I'll share them. But only then. When I have a Hot (but possibly age-related sagging and wrinkling) body to show off.

Those food boxes are awfully small, though...!

Drooling Bouncy Smileys

Wednesday, August 31, 2005

HungryI just checked the online system, and my food is on its way. It should be here in 3-4 days, so I suppose I should stuff myself silly with pizza and chocolate now while I can! (No, that's not really the plan, but it is tempting...)

I've avoided taking my measurements thus far; I figure I'll do it the day I actually start eating the NutriSystem food, and I'll weigh myself that morning, too.

This stuff better taste good. I'm actually seriously looking forward to it, and if it sucks I'll be as disappointed as a kid who Santa forgets on Christmas.

Tuesday, August 30, 2005

How I Got Fat

Cupcakes, Twinkies, Ding Dongs, Pizza, McDonalds...

Ok. Some of that for sure. But my weight came up on me in some odd ways. I was in damned good shape--150 pounds and about 16% body fat--and was extremely active, but in a 30 day span I gained 30 pounds. I wasn't pigging out; my diet was fairly normal and I was working out 2 hours a day, 5-6 days a week. Hard workouts, too. Martial arts. Weights. It was like I'd sneeze once a day and a pound would appear.

My weight stabilized; I maintained it but couldn't lose it, I argued with my doctor about it (he did not believe me) and a year later the same damned thing happened. Thirty pounds in a month. My doc sneered at me, said I needed nutritional counseling, and left me feeling like I was doggy doo dragged in one someone's shoe.

I refused to see anyone about it again, not even when 10 pounds piled on in about 3 weeks a year after that. There was no point.

I've struggled with this extra weight now for over 10 years. And in that time I've been diagnosed with 3 pain conditions, including arthritis, had a pituitary tumor (removed; benign) and learned something:

At least one doctor belived me. During some post-surgical treatment for all kinds of hormone deficiencies resulting from the tumor, I was told something I had wanted to hear for years. "Well,'re insulin resistent. We now know that for sure due to your insulin stress test. It could potentially cause you to gain weight quickly and prevent you from losing it."


But not an excuse. The weight could be dealt with, he said, but I'd have to shake up my nutrition plan. Skip the fad diets, dont bother with Atkins, just eat according to the glycemic index.


And I did. And I lost a few pounds. But somehow I got sidetracked by a couple of birthdays, birthday cake, and neighborhood BBQs... no more. I just had my 44th birthday, and dammit, I will lose the weight. Nutrisystem follows the glycemin index, and for at least a little while I can use their food to get me on track (and because I hate cooking...)

I should get my first shipment of prepackaged food in 4-10 days. Until then, I'm gonna enjoy myself--not pig out but I may eat out a couple of times--and then the fun begins.

It is fun, right? Getting healthy HAS to be fun!

Monday, August 29, 2005

I've hit middle age, I've gained way too much weight in the last few years, and dammit, it's time to do something about it. Thunder Thighs No More! Today I joined Nutrisystem, and once the food gets here, I'm determined. As long as the food doesn't suck.

I won't share my measurements or my starting weight, but I will (hopefully) have some statistical information to keep me accountable. Maybe something as simple as a + and - every Monday informing the world of pounds lost (-5) or [shudder] pounds gained (+1.22).

I'm trying to keep myself accountable. And trying to see where my head is at during the process. Anyone can play along, as long as they place nice.
Kitty 2